Monday, May 28, 2012

Sleepless in Reno

Hey there my blogger friends.  I have had the hardest time sleeping the past few weeks.  Ughhhhhh.  It's driving me crazy!  Okay, enough about that.  Well.....I feel like this baseball season is flying by.  Maybe it's because I'm 30 and my mom says that time goes by faster the older you get.  Or maybe it's because with the passing of every baseball season I know that it could be the last one.  I feel like my weeks are Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  Tuesday and Thursday just disappeared somewhere.  Except when Ryan is on the road of coarse and then the weeks are Monday, Monday, Tuesday, Tuesday, get the point.  Haha!  We kind of had a reality check this last week.  One of my husband's teammates and one of my good friends (his wife) that I met this season went home.  He decided it was his time to retire from baseball.  It made us really ready to be home, but it also made "the end" even that more real.  I know that the best part of our lives has really just begun with the birth of our daughter.  There are so many new and exciting adventures that are coming our way.  We will get to travel.  Like really travel.  Like no baseball games involved travel.  We have been so blessed by this game.  I know I've said it before, but it's been a crazy ride.  Most people just can't understand, but this is our "normal".  Being apart for months at a time, being away from our friends and family, struggling to make ends meet, finally making it to the bigs leagues, going back to triple A, getting called back up, and getting send back down, me going to all my baby doctor appointments ALONE because we "scheduled" our pregnancy around baseball (HAHA!!) me crazy, but I preferred he be present for the birth rather than the appointments.  It's all been our "normal" and I wouldn't change anything.  I love Ryan more that I have ever loved him and I absolutely can not wait to see what God has in store for us.  He is a BIG God and I know he has big plans for us.

I pray for peace of mind for Ryan every morning and every night.  Most people have NO IDEA how demanding this game is on these guys.  It's mentally, emotionally, and of course physically draining.  I just pray that when he decides to retire that he leaves this game with no regrets.  I can't tell you how many people have asked, "How much longer is he going to do the baseball thing?"  My answer, "As long as he wants to."  He is the ONLY person that gets to make that decision.  I'll be ready when ever he is ready and I'll be his biggest fan as long as he is behind that plate and right now I've got a ball player coming home tomorrow so I need to try to get some sleep.  Nighty night!!!

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

On the road again

Well, my baby daddy left today for an 8 day road trip.  The team is headed to Memphis and then Nashville.  The days are sooooooo long when he is away.  Don't get me wrong I enjoy the occasional  break from the baseball field.  Especially the freeeeeezing cold baseball field here in Reno.  But it's tough being in an unfamiliar place where you don't know many people.  I feel like it's especially tough for Parker.  I try to get her out of the condo as much as possible, but she has to be thinking, "Seriously? You? And me? Again?"  Last road trip I caught her on the computer looking for plane tickets home and packing her Mickey Mouse suit case....and that was only a 4 day road trip.  Also, she is CRAZY about her father, so that doesn't help the situation.  He's the "fun" parent.  I'm chopped liver when he's around.  Haha. We miss him tons when he's gone.  I'm hoping the weather stays nice so we can go to the pool or the zoo everyday.  Yeah, you heard me.  Everyday.  She loooooves being outside.  She also loves playing with other kids, so that is another reason it's so hard not knowing other moms here in Reno.  Parker pretty much made it look like she was being ME today at the pool when her "friends" (that she met today and played with for about 15 minutes) were leaving.  She was pushing me away and screaming as they walked away.  I was like, "Ummmmm.....I swear she's mine.  Come on sweetie.  Mommy loves you. MOMMY loves you.  Because you're my DAUGHTER.  I'm your MOMMY."  Haha!!  Seriously.  It was kind of sad, but mostly just embarrassing.  Gosh I love that kid.

I have 3 words for all you parents out there.

FRESH.      BEAT.       BAND.

These are the happiest 30 year old "teenagers" I have ever encountered.  And Parker is OBSESSED.  She will run sprint from whatever room she is in straight to the living room when she hears the opening song.  She dances and sings her little heart out and it is the cutest thing I have ever seen.  I have probably video taped her dancing about 37 times since we've been here in Reno and I will probably tape her at least 189 more times before Ryan gets home in 8 days.  And I'm not going to lie......I rock out to some of the songs right along with her.  It's pathetic I know.  I'm just saying that when they go on tour we WILL be going.  Haha!!!  I'm actually not sure if I really like the music or if I am just so happy to NOT hear the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse song that anything would sound amazing.

Well, that's all for now.  I'll try to update you again soon.